Gastric

Depending on a person to help change your fate of living or whatever, was always my "only way" of escaping. But silly me, it's useless and pointless to even have a slight thought of it. Been waiting and i dont know if i'm just very impatient or i just know my threshold well enough. The urge to pack and leave is too strong it hurts. Hurts knowing that nothing much can be done except to just rebel and go. Should i just leave everything and go to another place and build myself up or just wait and be like everyone else?